Day 4 of yapping about something random

Yup, i messed up, and this is exactly what i was talking about on day 1.
Well anyway. Lemme pretend this didnt happen.

And today's topic is gonna be "Schedules".
Its just day 4 and by now its pretty evident how much i struggle with sticking to one thing. Whats ironic is, i have a duolingo streak of 599 days (ive provided photo proof hehehhee). And yeah, if you've used that app, you'd get that I have taken wayyyyyy more streak freezes than i'd like to admit.
"Sticking to a schedule" scares the shit out of me, which is why i swore to never do a 9-5 job, which is also why i chose a design degree after 12th (my priorities were set, i just knew i wouldnt survive sticking to schedules). Dont you think it feels like you're living the same day on repeat? Like you wake up, get ready, go to office, work, come back in the evening, eat dinner and go to sleep? And by the time you reach the weekends youre too tired to actually "enjoy" it. Like thats a real horror movie in my opinion.
And yes, i've talked about this in therapy, it didnt exactly help. My therapist just told me to "make a habit" of doing certain things but thats where i struggle the most. I cant seem to make a habit and stick to it consistently, and after all these years, its started to bug me a bit.

I remember, as a kid i used to dream about living in a van, going to new places, meeting new people and working as an animator when i'd not be driving. Basically, i'd get to experience something new everyday, not just go through the same boring schedule day after day. All of this because 9-5 jobs scared the shit out of me. And they still do lmao.

My point is, sticking to a habit or a schedule or being consistent is something i'm not good at. Its also something that scares me, which is worse. But i know i need to work on it, even if just a little bit. So if y'all have some advice for yours truly, i'd appreciate it<3