This month was 🤪

this month was actually so shitty i can’t even explain 😭

first of all WHY did my periods decide to come so early??? like girl i was not mentally physically emotionally spiritually prepared for this at all. this is literally one of the worst things that could’ve happened to me this month.

and somehow this whole month has just been full of ups and downs and random breakdowns and crying sessions and me staring at the ceiling questioning everything but i still kept going somehow.

also can we PLEASE talk about how painful periods actually are?? because i genuinely think i have the worst periods to ever exist. like THE WORST. and every single time it just gets worser and worser and WORSE. i’m not even dramatic rn.

i’ve always tried avoiding painkillers because i hate depending on them but sometimes the pain literally wins. like what am i even supposed to do at that point.

and the worst part is people still don’t take it seriously. if a girl is quiet or irritated everyone suddenly goes “oh she’s on her period” “it’s just hormones” JUST hormones??? babe my body feels like it’s fighting a war inside me.

also i always feel so fat and ugly and uncomfortable during my periods and i hate that feeling so much. social media makes it even worse because people only see the pretty side of being an influencer. nobody sees the breakdowns, the pain, the overthinking, the exhaustion behind the screen.

but yeah. despite all of this i’m still going. because i genuinely care about myself. i care about my future. i care about becoming the woman i want to become even on the days where everything feels heavy.

anyway i just love that i can rant here freely 😭