I think I have an eating disorder.
I just realized today when claude pointed out very humbly that I might have an eating disorder.
So for context, I am unable to lose weight. Every year I just end up gaining extra 5 kg. Now before anyone says that I should go to gym, I workout 5 times a week. Like strength training, weight lifting (i literally do chest press with 22kg dumbbells) so yeah its not that I am not moving my body.
But its my relationship with food. I eat alot. I eat even when I am full just to finish the food. I eat when I am stressed. I eat every time I walk out of gym feeling exhausted and its not healthy meals. They are burger fries coke and every random fried food you can think of. And although I look big (for a woman, people words) I cannot do anything about it. Until I address this deep issue of my disorder.
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4You got it girl💪😤
I didn't write it, so who did.
Baby girl, as far as I know the science, women's body needs more. More sleep, more food, more soothing things to calm their mind down.
So, yeah we need more. But all in all, what we (me and you) can do, out of that more, try to include more healthy options.
And before it feels like a rant or advice, coke is my cheat meal after a gym.
I was in the same boat as you. I'm the kind of person who'll eat when she's sad, or bored or just because she's eaten something and now feels like she should eat more.
I've never eaten simply because I was hungry. I would mindlessly snack all the time.
I didn't gain weight when I was young because there were days where I would be happy and busy with college so I wouldn't eat at all.
But ever since I started working, i realised my eating increased because there were more sad and stressed days than good ones.
So I started with what I could control. I refused to keep any snacks in my house at all. Because I knew if there was chocolate on my table I would eat it. Of course I could have still ordered it, but the fact that it wasn't present in my house right then meant I won't be eating within the next 2 mins.
I'm the kind of person who'll order something unhealthy and be like what's the big deal, it's just one time, it's my cheat meal.
And I knew fully well that this was something that I was doing everyday. And yet I was lying to myself. This is my last unhealthy meal and I'll stop soon was something I repeatedly told myself.
Of course it never helped.
So slowly I tried fasting. It was not because I was gaining weight. It was because I was not feeling joy in eating anymore. I was getting acid reflux. I was eating because I had to.
So for 30 days I started intermittent fasting. I would eat super early in the morning and then at night. There was a 12 hr gap between my meals.
This was hard initially but I was able to stop mindless snacking and cook everyday. I lost 4 kgs in 30 days. I stopped ordering out. And now that the fast has ended, its effect has remained. My craving for outside food has actually gone.
So what u need is a habit. Start with something small. And keep on building on top of it.
Maybe you can talk with them and sort it out. Or you can learn to create boundaries and take a stand for yourself. Or you can hear from one ear and let it out from another. Or you can simply avoid being in their vicinity as much as you can.
Are u up for telling me tricks, please.??
I am stuck at 10-10 kgs each side.
Tbh, it my trainer. He pushed me alot. A hell lot and with constant training you up the game.